Adventures of Wermy in LaLaLand

return finally again!

2008-05-19T23:15:00.006+08:00

i just made a couple of major decisions.
--- 1. i'm not going to take a diploma in piano anymore; i'm stopping piano lessons with effect from next month.
--- 2. i've accepted nus nursing and set my heart to put in all my effort to excel in it to the best of my ability.

firstly, i must thank God for answering prayer and leading me along the way as i made my choices of courses and went for my interview. i really wanted to get into nursing but wasn't sure if it was synonymous with His will. i guess my acceptance into the course indicates that i'm on the right track.

secondly, i must thank all my great friends and family for giving me encouragement, reassurance, support and advice. and i'm glad that all of you are rejoicing with me. many thanks to you - papa, mummy, daniel, yi'en & yi xiang, jacinda, huizhen, daniel again(from the egypt trip. haha.) AND many many many more whom i've talked to, moaned to, whined to and pestered through the application period. =P really. thank you for all your patience!

work is still pretty fun and interesting and most importantly fulfilling i guess. i really like it when customers smile back at me or say a big thank you to me just before they leave the restaurant. they might not know that their simple little appreciative gestures really make our day. sometimes i feel so appreciated that i can forget momentarily that im dying from hunger or fainting from exhaustion. haha. my nightmares of the kitchen bell ringing endlessly calling us non-stop to go and send food to customers still persist. and i've been having lots of hallucinations of the kitchen bell and that of people calling out for me. oh well. better get more sleep or who knows what else i'll start to hallucinate about next. =X

my job!

2008-01-24T10:57:00.000+08:00

the job at coffee club is quite fun actually... like i get to meet many many people. all sorts of people. and the best thing is that my fellow co-workers are all very nice people who are willing to help me along and teach me. cheers!
lunch hour is insane! so difficult to entertain all the requests! and the worst thing is that the kitchen bell keeps ringing non-stop! i can hear it ringing in my head now... ... seriously. i hear it in my dreams. it's quite freaky sometimes!
i'm going for piano lesson later but i haven't practised enough! diploma is so scary... i heard that the other branch of the music school that signed students up for the diploma exam had ZERO passes!!!!!! oh my goodness!!!!!! so pressurizing... my piano teacher says it's difficult cos we are compared against the full-time music students from places like La Salle and NAFA. sigh... stress......

job found!

2008-01-05T23:22:00.000+08:00

i've found a part-time job at the raffles place coffe club outlet! whee~!
haha... i haven't been there before but from what i've heard of it, it sounds like a very nice place. yay! wish me all the best as i start work on wednesday!

new year

2007-12-31T12:41:00.000+08:00

my first new year resolution: to start blogging again! haha. =P

i'm currently still searching for a part-time job. wish me success!
i look forward to meeting up and spending time with all my friends soon during this long holiday too!!!!

Strive on!

2007-09-22T21:26:00.000+08:00

Band has come to a temporary pause, and it's now time to switch to muggggger mode! finally, the time has come for everyone to settle down and work hard to achieve the results we want in order to enter the course we desire! sigh... i hope i do make it. -- i can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. -- May God carry me through this difficult and trying time.

dinner!

2007-05-03T23:55:00.000+08:00

dinner was sooOOOOOoooooOOOOooooo FuN!!!
all the weird crap, gossiping and chat. haha.
not to forget the truth-or-dare appetiser. heehee...
i haven't had such a form of destressing in a long time.
i feel happier... i feel re-energised!

my performance standard is fluctuating... i hope it stabilises quickly! sobs.
but on the whole, i think it's not that that that bad. we MUST continue to work hard!
i must continue to push myself! the sky's the limit!

......

2007-04-27T22:09:00.000+08:00

i'm scared. worried. guilty.
stressed. pressurized.
nervous. jittery.
excited. ...
... confused.

band is such a worry and yet a joy.
chemistry is so irritating and taxing and pressurizing.
-looks like im clearer about my perception of chem than band.

rise up to our peak, we must.
or fail ourselves, dr lee, the teachers and all who care about acjccb, we would.

after-prac thoughts

2007-04-24T23:07:00.000+08:00

after-prac thoughts...
clearer. but not clean enough, not balanced, still out of tune.
anyway, i think im starting to sound a little better. =)
finally.

a new beginning

2007-04-13T22:58:00.000+08:00

i have made a resoution for myself. and i am going to pray very hard to the almighty God to help me keep to it, giving me the strength to control and discipline myself. i will eat less, study more, practise more. this is going to be a hard study cum slimming cum improvement programme. yeah! press on!

sniff.sniff.wail.

2007-03-17T22:38:00.000+08:00

i just don't know what is happenening to me.
i can't play properly. i can't study properly.
i'm going to fail my exams, fail my teachers, fail my parents, fail myself and everyone else.
heavenly father, please help me, i pray. i don't know what i'm doing.
i don't know how this is going to end up, but i suspect that it's not going to be good.
but i don't know how to help myself out of this quicksand.
sniff. sniff.. wails...

headache!!!

2006-12-18T23:13:00.000+08:00

oh my head... feels weird... a little sore, a little heavy, a little dizzy, ...
was it the rain? or the lack of sleep? or perhaps the overwhelming music?
sigh... maybe i should sleep early and tomorrow will be better day...

whee! yay!

2006-12-17T00:06:00.000+08:00

yippee..!!! more presents! i feel so loved. haha.
thankie you bize suyin & qianqi for the interesting pooh magic towel! and to my dearest long-time big sister cum newfound mum crystal the pingu, thank u thank u thank u for the big balloon! my mum and brother have returned from bangkok with presents for me too! there's the sunglasses, flip-flops and *ahem* undergarments. haha..
dinner at the holland village burger king was pretty enjoyable, with bize cynthia jefri joel kristen martin meiling melissa samuel zhenrong & some trombone sec 4 guy. i kind of over-ate though. we went to gelare for ice-cream and then proceeded home.
i'm so glad that crystal's the chaperone for my band fest band, ravel! whee~!

officially 17

2006-12-15T23:09:00.000+08:00

yay! im officially seventeen, all you evil things out there. muahahahaha..
whee~! my first ever ice-skating attempt on my 17th birthday! i love u people loads! amazing how you can read my mind(, isabel!). i've always wanted to try ice-skating! thank you loads for the cheesecake you baked for me! really appreciate it! but i'm having a tummyache now, though. hmmmm... i don't think it's the cake, is it? haha.. just joking. i had a really great time with all of you, playing the piano and indulging in board games, mahjong and bridge.
a big thank you to.. isabel amos kristen jerel joseph leon samuel theresa weiting yingda & zhiwen.. for celebrating my birthday with me! not forgetting those who gave me presents!
guosheng martian meltian wentian amos kristen isabel sam ther mingxuan & da, i love the tortoise you gave me! it's so nice and huggable but i'm so worried that it'll get dirty. joseph jerel & leon, the golden flute pin you guys gave me was super cool. i like it very much too! and to shujuan, thankies loads for the adorable pooh bear and pretty necklace! i hope all of you didn't spend too much on me!

comeback!

2006-12-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

sigh.. i've been soooo lazy to update.
anyway, today was pretty eventful, i would say. bowling was.. quite disastrous. my ball seemed to be very attracted to the drain. then we had fun playing lame games like fuzzy wuzzy in mac's but i didn't figure out most of them! that's so sad.. then we proceeded to amos' house for pool! the first time in my life i ever played pool! how cool! it's harder than i thought. thereafter i had to leave early for my piano lesson but somehow, i got lost in the condo compound. how embarassing! anyway, i went back to seek help and zhenrong kindly walked me out. i went for piano lesson and got tortured with an evil etude that stretched my fingers non-stop throughout. curel chopin. then i went back to amos' place where the people were still playing. oh.. i played big two and pool.
the bad thing was that the billiard room did not have reception and my dad couldn't reach me. when i called him after i came out, he scolded me. sobs. he says that he nearly called the police because he thought that i had been kidnapped or something. hmmm... that's quite scary. i ended up buying dinner back and he told me off a little and nagged a bit but was alright soon after.

it's OVER!!!

2006-11-08T19:00:00.000+08:00

yay!!!!!! it's OVER!!!!!! no more PW!!!!!!! haha.
yippeee!! but now i have to allocate my time to more important tasks. like GP HOMEWORK, revision and practising both the piano and the flute. how nice. anyway, i'm happy! wheee! there's band tomorrow! i really really hope we do well for the concerts this time. let's do acjc band proud! i look forward to the band camp. i'm sure we'll all have a great time together. for now, let's work hard and polish up our playing! we can do it! =)

i'm so sad...

2006-10-27T00:09:00.000+08:00

why must there be retainees?? it's so depressing to see your friends get retained and yet you can do nothing to help. nooooo... promote with us, please. someone please tell me that this isn't true..! i don't want it to be this way.. please stride on with us.. i really really can't bear to see you people retained. my heart aches when i see the helpless look on your faces and the sadness in your eyes. it pains me to see you all putting on brave fronts. perhaps we would all feel better if you all cry it out. sobs...
i'm sad about my own results but i know i should be thankful for a promotion which i might not have deserved or gotten. i thought i would have only advanced. the promotion was a blessing in itself already, though the results are nothing to be proud of at all.
bio spa today was quite stressful... i was writing to the last minute. and the stupid rate when calculated had so many zeroes in it, i was seeing stars by the end of the exam. but anyway, it's over! yes! whee~! holidays are here! yay! oh.. and towards the end of the exam, there was this random horn sound.. or is it eupho.. i don't know. haha. must have irritated a lot of people.

Yay...

2006-10-21T21:02:00.000+08:00

i wasn't able to update my blog since promos ended because it "disappeared" from my dashboard. i finally solved the problem, kudos to mx (thankie u loads!) . i just forgot that my username had a couple of numbers behind my full name. yet i could still log in with the incorrect username. how amazing. anyway, i'm glad that my blog's back. i love it so much!
my promos' results were not fantastic, and i thought that it was a total failure. until some people told me that my results actually may allow me to be promoted. either way, i don't want to get my hopes too high. as the saying goes, the higher you climb, the harder the fall. i actually passed gp. i'm thankful to God for sending a lenient marker. frankly speaking, if i were to mark my own essay i would not pass it. i pray that i will get promoted, but i will still be thankful no matter what the outcome may be because i believe that He has a purpose for everything that happens in my life. i hope i can truly commit everything unto His hands and accept everything as they are. =]
PW OP is getting scary. i was totally terrorised during the rehearsal yesterday during PW lesson. i lost quite a lot of sleep because of it too. but i'm so glad that the written report is settled. finally! but i have no clue as to how i should even start my I & R. but i believe i will be able to get it done, just like my EOM. i didn't know how to start, but i was able to complete it in the end, somehow.
oh well.. i'm going to work hard for the pop concert at the end of november. i hope we will all perform up to dr lee's expectations. let's strive on together as one body, as one band! =)
oh ya.. we went to ikea after school yesterday for dinner and shopping. it was fun, with the guys talking about the wrong stuff and making the otherwise innocent things in ikea look wrong. haha. it was funny. i could only get their jokes only half the time but it was still enjoyable watching them laugh too. in short, i was happy and it made me feel much better after i got my results.

drained

2006-09-13T22:36:00.000+08:00

GP was totally exhausting. i didn't know how to write the counter argument for the essay. it was terrrible. if i were my teacher, i would either laugh my head off or scream in horror. it's absolutely out of point. i'm so dead. boo hoo hoo... and i didn't know how to answer the compre questions. especially the summary. this is it. would i ever be able to improve in time? ... ...

noooo...

2006-09-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

is this the end already? so fast? holidays have ended and i've done so little revision. i must catch up. someone please help me. i'm so very behind time. i'm going to DIE. I'm doing something, but it's not enough. i must speed up. but speed is something i never had, do not have, and probably wouldn't ever have. sobs. i must buck up. yes, pull up my socks i must!
i hate lizards. i would do anything to wipe them out and make them disappear from the face of this planet. on wednesday, i hurt myself while trying to escape from a potential baby lizard attack in the hidden library. i realised tt the baby lizard was already dead. but by then i had already caused myself to suffer a big bruise. now it's hurting like anything. evil lizards, the bane of my life.
i feel the pressure. i don't want to be retained!!! wah... i'm so scared...

oops

2006-09-04T22:57:00.000+08:00

i feel so bad... i think i was too worked up this morning.
only one of the 3 promised computer labs was open, till just before 11 when they opened another. i had very little time left. i got locked out, unable to attempt the quiz. i accessed it but got stuck at question 15 for almost 15 minutes. worst of all, the computer was lagging. i was about to smash the computer with my bare hands(not literally, just verbally threatening to). i can't believe i became so violent. i'm so sorry if i scared anyone. i didn't mean to. (sorry!)
sigh.. another day wasted. hardly accomplished anything. i must start on something tomorrow. yes! i will do something tomorrow!

some reflections

2006-08-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

when im relieved of some mental burden, more has to be added on.
why? why? why???
chemistry, u evil thing, stop bothering me. i regret letting u into my life. get out.. out! now! i don't want to see u, ever again! but then again, what can i do. i made my choice in january. i'm going crazy. ahhhhhhhhhhh......!!!!!!
anyway, thanks da, for counselling me. really helped.
thank God for working in mysterious ways. somehow, i passed the last geography test. it's not some amazing score, but at least i passed.
oh ya.. let me talk about something happier. i think the princess leia's theme part that i played was satisfying. finally. but it still lacks something. i shall continue to search for it. i must practise more. probably after promos.
well, hope i can really concentrate on studying.
yawns... nite nite. ZzzZzz......

worry, worry, worry

2006-08-19T00:40:00.000+08:00

i'm so worried, cos i think tt i'm still not good enough, especially for star wars. try as i might, my stubby fingers just refuse to run the notes smoothly. i dont know what on earth has been wrong with me lately. laser sound! ever so important so that there is projection. i hope everything would fall into place soon. when can i reach the desired standard? i believe we can get our syf gold with honours next year and we will. let's all work hard. but balancing schoolwork and practising is hard. i tend to favour the latter. my parents are screaming their heads off. i'm fretting over my preparations for the promos. sigh.

God will help me through all difficulties. he shall comfort me. i'm so sad today. i need anti-depressants. i'm thinking about so many things. sometimes i feel like screaming it out, but i know i must restrain myself.

i hope i can get in the studying rhythm soon. God, please help me. teach me to be disciplined.

im dying here... someone save me...

2006-07-28T23:26:00.000+08:00

im so dead... haven't been sick for too long. so the moment i fall ill, it becomes real bad.
sigh... the headache, the sore throat, the blocked nose, the occasional sharp pain in the ear...
i couldn't get up in the morning cos my head felt so heavy that i thought i would fall the moment i stepped out of bed. ( i nearly did, then almost rammed into the door frame)

haha.... god works in mysterious ways. i actually managed to smell the vapours during the chem spa!!! haha... but i messed up my VA, though. oh well... but i received news that i passed my chemistry test!!! that's the first time this year! yay! but it's not that great a score, cause it's only 12/20. but it's a good start, i guess.

sleep might not be good

2006-07-17T18:06:00.000+08:00

the more i rest at home, the worse my condition becomes.
maybe staying at home was a mistake. maybe i should have gone to school.
let's see what happens tomorrow. maybe i'll get better. anyway, i don't want to miss band!

i had a nightmare while napping just now. about my term results.
can't believe it. i actually cried in my sleep.

Boohoo...

2006-07-16T20:44:00.000+08:00

i feel so sick.
nauseous, headache, stomachache.
doctor said it's some stomach and intestine viral infection.
should've self-healed within 3-4 days but hasn't got better at all after 2 weeks.
please save me from all this suffering.

as if this is not enough, i think i failed my terms. sigh. how am i supposed to pull through the promos? God please help me. make me disciplined and motivated so that i will excel.

EXTREME boredom

2006-07-05T19:40:00.000+08:00

the NE dialogue's SUPER DUPER boring. i felt like we were going round in circles. right at the start, someone already smsed me saying that she was very bored and was stoning. haha. i was already turning into a fossil by the time the second question was answered. haha. amazing how my ears were still open. haha. AD1 people rock. their questions really hit the nail on the head. impressive. =)
we're going to rehearse for IPHO performance tmr. yeah! i miss the band. and dr lee too. *grins* let's have fun tmr!

terms end!

2006-07-04T17:22:00.000+08:00

the last math paper is over. but the poor mep peeps still have exams tmr and next week.
hang in there, people. it'll be over in a flash. my heart goes out to all of you.
this is so depressing. we came back to take exams, just to fail them. but i've proven that ice cream is an ideal anti-depressant.
the ice cream buffet at swensen's after chem did lift my spirits. haha. 6 huge scoops. can't believe i did it. feroz's not human. he downed 8.5 scoops. whoa. xinyan close behind-7.5 scoops. tt was a sinful but happy experience. waffle with ice cream at gelare was great too. at least i did have fun with the race to polish up the waffle. hee... i knew i was destined to lose to yingda and sam. sigh. but i really enjoyed it. haha. (i still cant believe i took more than 40 bites to finish a burger, as sam claims)

sydney blues

2006-07-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

i need a place to grieve. my parents don't like me thinking or talking about sydney.
but i can't help it. i'm sad. it's so hard to concentrate on studying.
i feel like crying when i see the photos we took. i miss the seniors already.
seeing daniel and gabriel in the section photos remind me that there is little time left to spend with them. why did time have to pass so quickly...